pindahan

dedaunanijo pindah kadiyek

selamat menjalani bulan ramadhan
mohon maaf lahir batin

(hibernating mode on)

BRAIN RECALIBRATION START

Shud i say nothing ?
for words are the source of misunderstandings

there is a lot that i want to say ..
but sometimes pride get in the way..
but sometimes i just dont know how..
and i dont understand what you think and feel that time..

sorry

How many times in your life have you ever had the feeling,
that the way you live is crazy and there must be something else
When you look at the sky does it ever cross your mind
there could be something you've forgotten that won't ever go away

Gets too much after a while trying to always hide your feelings
When the world is going crazy and you keep it to yourself
How much it hurts, though you try, try so hard to get on with your life
And tell yourself that worse things happen and just hope it goes away

Like the sun in the night
Like the sun in the night baby...

SATU BINTANG DI LANGIT KELAM

Angkasa tanpa pesan... merengkuh semakin dalam
Berselimut debu waktu kumenanti
Cemas...

Kau datang dengan sederhana
Satu bintang dilangit kelam
Sinarmu rimba pesona... dan kutahu tlah tersesat

Kukejar kau takkan bertepi
Menggapaimu takkan bersambut
Sendiri membendung rasa ini
Sementara... kau membeku

Khayalku terbuai jauh
Pelita kecilmu mengalir pelan... dan aku terbenam
Redup kilaumu tak mengarah
Jadilah diriku selatan
Namun tak kau sadari hingga kini dan nanti

By Rida-Sita-Dewi (RSD)

lagu indonesian oldies... ditemukan ketika lagi browsing hqjomblo,
jadi inget langit di rumah malang,

The milky way at the scorpion's tail, penanda waktu tanam padi telah tiba (scorpion a.k.a waluku, muncul di langit musim hujan). Scorpion dengan bintang merahnya, Antares (that was only a star... but.......................... :(().

The southern cross, rasi bintang layang-layang di langit selatan, penunjuk arah selatan paling akurat, yang selalu terlihat ketika keluar dari pintu rumah di malam hari. Dulu, kalau layang-layang ini sudah naik lebih tinggi dari pucuk pohon kelapa di kebun tetangga, artinya saatnya tidur... g'nite baby... sweet dream :D (still remember it too well... )

orion yang ganteng... (uhhh, orien ding :)), dwiku pardon me pls!), orion ini muncul di waktu scorpion menghilang, saatnya angin gede yang adem dateng, betelgeux-nya yang indah(tau namanya dari si astro-girl)... orion bintang badaiku.

trus si rasi bintang 2 gayung terbalik atau polar bear, ursa mayor dan ursa minor, di langit utara, dengan polarisnya (a.k.a the big dipper) yang selalu mengingatkan pada "fly me to polaris", duhai mas onion .... cedihhnaa... :((

lagu ini...(walaupun ga nyambung)
satu bintang di langitku yang kelam
semakin kelam langitku,
semakin indah sang bintang....
i luv it, i luv it, i luv it
ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye... :P

mink

mink mink mink
menurut linguist
mink = kb. 1 semacam cerpelai. 2 bulu binatang cerpelai.

4 me, mink = mi nk
mi = my ( according to drew)
nk = me lahh
mink = nk-ku??

nu project i currently doing
moga2 cepet selese yak...
dengan selamat dan sukses!
ntar kalo sudah, gw kasih tau deh

c yaaa

LOCOMOTIVE (GnR)

GONNA FIND A WAY TO CURE THIS LONELINESS
YEAH I'LL FIND A WAY TO CURE THIS PAIN
IF I SAID THAT YOU'RE MY FRIEND
AND OUR LOVE WOULD NEVER END
HOW LONG BEFORE I HAD YOUR TRUST AGAIN

I OPENED UP THE DOORS WHEN IT WAS COLD OUTSIDE
HOPIN' THAT YOU'D FIND YOUR OWN WAY IN
BUT HOW CAN I PROTECT YOU
OR TRY NOT TO NEGLECT YOU
WHEN YOU WON'T TAKE THE LOVE I HAVE TO GIVE

I BROUGHT ME AN ILLUSION
AND I PUT IT ON THE WALL
I LET IT FILL MY HEAD WITH DREAMS
AND I HAD TO HAVE THEM ALL
BUT OH THE TASTE IS NEVER SO SWEET
AS WHAT YOU'D BELIEVE IT IS...
WELL I GUESS IT NEVER IS
IT'S THESE PREJUDICED ILLUSIONS
THAT PUMP THE BLOOD

..............................



unowotimean!
i luv u
even u r only an illusion
even u wont believe it
i'll keep it inside
furever

STUPID ME!!!
GONE OFF THE TRACK!!

Stepping Westward ( by : Denise Levertov)

What is green in me
darkens, muscadine.
If woman is inconstant,
good, I am faithful to
ebb and flow, I fall
in season and now
is a time of ripening.
If my part
is to be true,
a north star,
good, I hold steady
in the black sky
and vanish by day,
yet burn there
in blue or above
quilts of cloud.
There is no savor
more sweet, more salt
than to be glad to be
what, woman,
and who, myself,
I am, a shadow
that grows longer as the sun
moves, drawn out
on a thread of wonder.
If I bear burdens
let them be remembered
as gifts, goods, a basket
of bread that hurts
my shoulders but closes me
in fragrance. I can
eat as I go.

Let me be consistent with my unconsistency, ... :P

cowok terganteng di duniaa!!!!

ini dia yang paling tak kangeni sak malang
nama : Yanizar Naufal Mas'ud
dob : malang, 5 juli 2003
hobi : ngiler, lompat-lompat, nangis, main cemuutt-cemuuuttt



huekekekeke centil ya... spt tantenya :))
kmaren pas dia main hpku, denger alarm yang bunyinya kukuruyuk, langsung hpnya dipanggil: "tikkk, pitikk..." dengan penuh cinta :))
pas denger suara kuda, manggilnya: "embeekkk...." :))

oalah le le...
betapa aku cinta padamu!!

kweks yang ke... nth

kweks kweks kweks
bebek-bebekku
mari kemari
kuberi makan
satu per satu
kweks kweks kweks

kweks kweks kweks
gebetan-gebetanku
mari kemari
kusayang-sayang
satu per satu
mwah mwah mwah

kwekskwekskweks
hiahahahahahahaha =))

Arrgghhhhhhh

dicuekin lagi dicuekin lagi
weks....
yo wes...
saya tak golek gebetan ae sing akeh!
huh!

to me myself and i

be strong, be strong, my little one
the storm will subside eventually

hold on, hold on, my little one
a lil bit more, you will surely come home

never falter my little one
you know you can get thru this

will i wait a lonely life time?
if you want me to
i will

my hunny B....

my hunny B
kemarin kamu datang
menggandeng seseorang
dengan mata berbintang-bintang

my hunny B
kemarin kamu ceritakan
tentang sang pangeran
yang menjemputmu menuju ke awan

my hunny B
kemarin aku tak tahu
harus tertawa atau cemburu
Be happy B, always, itu yang ku mau

jangan lupa B
kutunggu undanganmu di bulan januari

(nb: B, ty, tusuk kondenya lucu hihihihi....:P)

A Dream within A Dream

(by Edgar Allan Poe, 1827)

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep-
while I weep!
O God! can not I grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can not I save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

sakit sakiitttttt sakiiitttttttttttttt
terlalu sakiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttttt
beeeppppp beeepppp beeeppppppppppppppp
alert
alert
alert
system crash failure

oVEr & oUT

trust?

could i?
will i?
would u?

tauu ah!

luv ya

dats oll!

langit biru

07.00-07.20 am :
lari-lari di sabuga,
ndak ada simbah kancil,
gak semangat berlari,
4 puteran trus duduk dibench samping......

07.30-07.45 am :
masih duduk, sambil liat langit
me: waaaa langitnya biru ya...
>:) me : hmmmmm
O:-) me: hmmmmmm
me: biruuu banget ya...
>:) me : truss....????
me: "trus????" ??? masih biru.....
>:) me: haa?
o:-) : hmmmmmm
me: kenapa "haa?", kalo langitnya biru ya biru, titik!!!
>:) me : tha's all??? gubluks!!!!
me : haaa???
>:) me : sekolah sampek tuwek pancet gubluks, dasar gubluks!!!
me : benee!!!! "GUBLUKS ITU BAWAAN"
>:) me : kata sapa???
me : kataku!!!
>:) me : gubluks itu pilihan!
me : emang ada org yang milih jadi gubluks?
>:) me : ada, kamu!!!
me : saya? gubluks? kenapa? hanya karena langit biru???
>:) me : kan bisa "langit itu biru, tak berawan, sebiru semudera... biru bagaikan biru"
me : T*IIIII!!!! podo gublukse!!!
>:) me : at least gubluksku lebih kreatif, yang bisa melihat biru tak hanya biru...
me : gombale mukiyo!!!!

tiba-tiba.....
kruyuuuukkkkkkrukkruuukkkrrrr.... (sfx: rumble-rumble)
>:) me + me : lueee.....
O:-) me : pulang yuk
>:) me + me : yuuukkkkkkk!!!!
me : mmm enaknya makan apa ya :.....
>:) me: ciken
O:-) me : jamur
me : cah ciken jamur
us : horeeee!!!!!!!

garinks bangged siiyy....
akhirnya yang jadi adalah jamur tirem goreng tepung (rikwes by astro-girl) + ayam cah dikecapi :))
hiduuppp gublukss!!!!!
hiduuppp langit biruu!!!!!

Nothingman (Pearl Jam)

Once divided...nothing left to subtract...
Some words when spoken...can't be taken back...
Walks on his own...with thoughts he can't help thinking...
Future's above...but in the past he's slow and sinking...
Caught a bolt 'a lightnin'...cursed the day he let it go...

Nothingman...
Isn't it something?
Nothingman...

She once believed...in every story he had to tell...
One day she stiffened...took the other side...
Empty stares...from each corner of a shared prison cell...
One just escapes...one's left inside the well...
And he who forgets...will be destined to remember...
oh...oh...oh...

Nothingman...
Isn't it something?
Nothingman...

Oh, she don't want him...
...after he's flown away...
Oh, into the sun...ah, into the sun...

Burn...burn...
Nothingman...
Isn't it something?
Nothingman...
Nothingman...
Coulda' been something...
Nothingman...
Oh...ohh...ohh...

nb : tema minggu ini BURN

API!!!!!!!!!!
Kemari KAU
Bakar aku!
Jadi abu
Jadi debu

API!!!!!!!!!!
Dimana KAU
Bakar aku!
Jadi phoenix
Jadi phoenix

Ke langit
terbang, terbang
tinggi
tinggi

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!API!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oVEr & oUT

Forever searching; never right, I am lost
in oceans of night.
Forever hoping: I can find memories
the memories he left behind


Even though I leave will I go on believing
that this time is real - am I lost in this feeling?
like a child passing through, never knowing the reason.
I am home - I know the way.
I am home - feeling oh, so far away......

Hard times

All that is past: your fears and loves and hopes ;
All that is lost: your words and lamentation ;
No longer yours a home nor a bed composed of flowers.
For wings are all you have, and the sky's broadening countryard, And the dawn steeped in darkness, lacking all direction.
Dear bird, my sightless bird,
Not yet, not yet the time to furl your wings!

(Hard times, the crescent moon, R. Tagore)

Lover's Gifts V: I Would Ask For Still More (R. Tagore)

I would ask for still more, if I had the sky with all its stars,
and the world with its endless riches;
but I would be content with the smallest corner of this earth
if only ...........

.....you're by my side.....

will ya babe???

eh...

kok blank...
saya tadi mau nulis sesuatu
lupa
hueh
......... well be back soon.............

pernah kah?

"Sometimes we catch a glimpse of perfect happiness,
but It's when you try to have everything,
That it all goes up in smoke"

weks

Life's a Dream by Lighthouse Family

"What you gonna do with your Life?
When you gonna spend your time?
The way that you've always wanted
When you gonna make up your mind?
You won't get anywhere until
You know what it is you really want to do

And when you know where you're going to
There'll be no stopping you

If only you could remember your dream
You could be all the things you've always wanted to be

What's been stopping you all this time?
The worst thing that could happen ain't as bad
As you thought it would be
When you gonna go out and shine?
Cos sitting around just thinking about it
Ain't ever gonna do you any good"

The End (A. A. Milne)

When I was One,
I had just begun.

When I was Two,
I was nearly new.

When I was Three,
I was hardly me.

When I was Four,
I was not much more.

When I was Five,
I was just alive.

But now I am six,
I'm as clever as clever

So I think I'll be six now
Forever and ever.

If i am 25, thats mean....
am i a fool????
maybe i am.........
:(

ummm will I say??? :P

pernah nonton pilem kartunnya Hercules ?
kalo pernah, inget ma lagu ini??
pas ada penyanyi trio yang lucu banget (the muses) yang lagi nggodain si meg???

kalo inget, ini lagunya ;)

I Wont Say....I'm ... ummmmm (!!!!sstttts!!!!) :))

[Meg:]
If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!

[Muses:] Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of


[Meg:]
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh

[Meg:]
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh

[Muses:]
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying!
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

[Meg:]
No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
Give up, give in!
Check the grin!
you're in love

[Meg:]
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love!

[Muses:]
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love

[Meg:]
You're way off base!
I won't say it
Get off my case!
I won't say it

[Muses:]
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. !
you're in love

[Meg:]
Oh.. well
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love

huehehehehehehehehe
I wonder why not say it, when you're ??
pride?
or else

next

end

!!! :))

A Red Red Rose

by : Robert Burns

Till all the seas gang dry, my dear,
And the rocks melt with the sun;
I will luv thee still, my dear,
While the sands of life shall run.

And farewell, my only Luv,
And farewell forever!...


And I wont come again, my Luv,
Tho' it were only a breath away ..............

bye lovey !!!

..."Life has to end, Love doesn't "... does it?

Tadi malem baca bukunya Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven,
gak begitu bagus sih, tapi ada beberapa bagian yang sangat menyentuh hati.

Buku ini ceritanya mengenai embah-embah umur 83 tahun yang namanya Eddie, tapi dia hebat bgt, umur segitu masih bisa kerja jadi tukang reparasi di sebuah taman hiburan yang namanya Ruby Pier. Pada hari Embah tadi ulang tahun ke 83, ada sebuah kejadian, salah satu mainan di taman hiburan td rusak, dan mo jatuh, padahal di dalemnya ada anak kecil yang terperangkap. Mbah Eddie berusaha nolongin si anak tadi dan ...
wham!!
mbah Eddie kejatuhan dan kegencet mainan yang jatuh itu.... (hiks...beliau langsung meninggal dunia sodara2... ciaan deh)

Apa yang terjadi setelah seseorang a.k.a mbah Eddie meninggal?
(Gak tau deh, blom pernah soalnya..... :P)

Menurut buku itu "...You will meet five people that lead you to heaven, where you can understand your life's purpose, accepting your fate and your self... " (bener gak ya? kalo menurut org islam sih, ketemunya ma malaikat raqib & atid yang nyatet amal-amal kita, me mbayanginnya kayak ketemu pak carik kelurahan yang bawa2 bendelan map yang setebel bantal gituh... )

Si mbah Eddie ini ketemu sapa aja? dan kenapa dia ketemu orang tersebut? apa gunanya ketemu orang tersebut? (....dikasih bocoran ceritanya gak ya???...... :P)

Pokoknya adaahh ajah.... huehehehehehehehehe

Dari buku itu, ada bagian yang menyatakan "Life has to end, Love doesn't ",
yap bener, tapi kadang "love has to end, but life must go on" isn it???? (huehehehehehe ternyata mo bilang inih yaaah :P)
dan "all endings are also beginnings"
dan "each person is in your life for a reason"

Dan akhirnya "kebencian adalah pedang bermata dua, saat kau gunakan untuk melukai seseorang, it will hurt yourself too......"

So.... met merit buat u yang disana, semoga kamu menemukan kebahagiaan dengan dia disisimu....

and buat lo kodok, find your happiness too.... moga2 cepet ketemu juga yaah :)& maafin gw, yang hobi ngamuk2 ma elo sementara elo berusaha tetep jadi temen gw yang baik :D Peace bro?? >:)

and for me?
i know who i am after,
Kuro, watch out babe !!!

Anti Gravitation ?

huehehehehehehehe hehehehehe hehehehe
senangnya hati sayah
anti gravitation : thats what love should be called

Dari Sabang sampai Merauke, sambung menyambung menjadi satu

bought a ticket for a runaway train
like a madman laughing in the rain...
a little bit out of touch, a little insane
just easier than dealing with this pain....... (soul asylum)


this pain is just so real...
this wound won't seem to heal..........(evanescence)

how do you heal a broken heart..... (sapa ya yang nyanyi.... lufaa.. :))


hehehehehehe
hehehehehehehe
hehehehehehehehe

apalagi ya....

My long and winding road

The wild and windy night that the rain washed away
Has left a pool of tears crying for the day
Why leave me standing here, let me know the way
Many times I've been alone and many times I've cried
Anyway you'll never know the many ways I've tried
And still they lead me back to the long and winding road
You left me standing here a long, long time ago
Don't leave me waiting here, lead me to you door

But still they lead me back to the long and winding road
You left me standing here a long, long time ago....................................

(Beatles : Long and Winding Road)

Fall again and again

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small ; (Everytime, B. Spears)

Sometimes ago, i asked to myself, could i fly?
Now i know the answer,
I cant
but I will not quit trying and learning to fly,
even on one wing only ( the other one already broken, struck by lightning :D)

talkin bout flying and falling, remember Icarus's story?
The one that fly too close to the sun, so his wings was burned and melted away, he then fell into the sea, dead!

maybe someday my one wing will be burned and i'll be dropped dead too, but would i care if i know how it feel to fly?
I wont care!!!!!!!!!!!

to B, Dont worry my friend

Hands ( Jewel)

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that I'm all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear

* My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken

Poverty stole your golden shoes
But it didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after

I'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing



In the end only kindness matters

URgghhhhhh
sebel buangets
ga enak rasanya harus pura-pura
pura-pura kalo semua baik2 saja
pura-pura kalo dia adalah stranger
pura-pura kalo ....................
aughhh
pokonya jadi pura-pura dalam perahu itu gak enak deh!!!!!!

................../------------------------/__________________-

so numb
i cant feel anything ...............

:D

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................
bisa ngeblog lagi at last

sudah masuk bulan april, i have already been 25
hepi belsdey to me myself and i
sayangnya ga sempet menuliskan kesan pesan dan harapan seperti taun lalu

ummm ummmm
udah ah
garink byee

(saat ini ) yang ku ingin :

The Real Thing
(Bobby Caldwell)

Here comes the night once again
I'll be feeling lonely
Oh, if only things could work out like you plan

Where can love be
Tell me why it's so hard to find somebody
who will stand by me
and take the time to understand


I want the real thing
or nothing at all
I need someone that i can be sure
will catch me if i should fall
Someone who'll be there when i call
then i'll know that is the real thing

I want the real thing
to warm me each night
someone who will make it all right
just give me the real thing

where is the moon
wont it smile
on just one more dreamer
let your beams come down
and fill my empty room

here comes the night
but if there's still a change that love can find me
I'll be there, crossing my fingers


I want to know for sure
that i can feel secure
knowing i've found an everlasting love
...............................
then i wont let go

pileks

Pileks berat yang datengnya setahun sekali telah menyerang lagi,
akibatnya seminggu ga bisa bangun.
tapi ada untungnya juga, gw jadi bisa nyelesein tablecloth buat hadiah ultah mommy gw yang jatuh tanggal 1 februari besok,
dan...
merenung...

Question:
i am almost 25, but i still dont know where i will go....

answer:
ENTAHLAH

waiting ... (in vain)

once, you make me miss you
then you're gone without a word
what did i do wrong?
what do you intend to do?

(mode sulking on!)

you know, one should be responsible for what one has tamed.....(said the fox)

This is a part of my fave story, The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint Exupery

"Good morning," said the fox.

"Good morning," the little prince responded politely, although when he turned around he saw nothing.

"I am right here," the voice said, "under the apple tree."

"Who are you?" asked the little prince, and added, "You are very pretty to look at."

"I am a fox," the fox said.

"Come and play with me," proposed the little prince. "I am so unhappy."

"I cannot play with you," the fox said. "I am not tamed."

"Ah! Please excuse me," said the little prince.

But, after some thought, he added:

"What does that mean--'tame'?"

"You do not live here," said the fox. "What is it that you are looking for?"

"I am looking for men," said the little prince. "What does that mean--'tame'?"

"Men," said the fox. "They have guns, and they hunt. It is very disturbing. They also raise chickens. These are their only interests. Are you looking for chickens?"

"No," said the little prince. "I am looking for friends. What does that mean--'tame'?"
"It is an act too often neglected," said the fox. It means to establish ties."

"'To establish ties'?"

"Just that," said the fox. "To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys.
And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me.

To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes.
But if you tame me, then we shall need each other.

To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world . . ."
"I am beginning to understand," said the little prince. "There is a flower . . . I think that she has tamed me . . ."

"It is possible," said the fox. "On the Earth one sees all sorts of things."

"Oh, but this is not on the Earth!" said the little prince.

The fox seemed perplexed, and very curious.

"On another planet?"

"Yes."

"Are there hunters on that planet?"

"No."

"Ah, that is interesting! Are there chickens?"

"No."

"Nothing is perfect," sighed the fox.

But he came back to his idea.

"My life is very monotonous," the fox said. "I hunt chickens; men hunt me. All the chickens are just alike, and all the men are just alike. And, in consequence, I am a little bored.

But if you tame me, it will be as if the sun came to shine on my life.

I shall know the sound of a step that will be different from all the others. Other steps send me hurrying back underneath the ground. Your steps will call me, like music, out of my burrow.

And then look: you see the grain-fields down yonder? I do not eat bread. Wheat is of no use to me. The wheat fields have nothing to say to me. And that is sad.

But you have hair that is the color of gold. Think how wonderful that will be when you have tamed me!

The grain, which is also golden, will bring me back the thought of you. And I shall love to listen to the wind in the wheat . . ."

The fox gazed at the little prince, for a long time.

"Please--tame me!" he said.

"I want to, very much," the little prince replied. "But I have not much time. I have friends to discover, and a great many things to understand."

"One only understands the things that one tames," said the fox. "Men have no more time to understand anything. They buy things all ready made at the shops. But there is no shop anywhere where one can buy friendship, and so men have no friends any more. If you want a friend, tame me . . ."

"What must I do, to tame you?" asked the little prince.

"You must be very patient," replied the fox. "First you will sit down at a little distance from me--like that--in the grass. I shall look at you out of the corner of my eye, and you will say nothing. Words are the source of misunderstandings. But you will sit a little closer to me, every day . . ."

The next day the little prince came back.

"It would have been better to come back at the same hour," said the fox. "If, for example, you come at four o'clock in the afternoon, then at three o'clock I shall begin to be happy.
I shall feel happier and happier as the hour advances. At four o'clock, I shall already be worrying and jumping about. I shall show you how happy I am!

But if you come at just any time, I shall never know at what hour my heart is to be ready to greet you . . . One must observe the proper rites . . ."

"What is a rite?" asked the little prince.

"Those also are actions too often neglected," said the fox.
"They are what make one day different from other days, one hour from other hours.
There is a rite, for example, among my hunters. Every Thursday they dance with the village girls. So Thursday is a wonderful day for me! I can take a walk as far as the vineyards.
But if the hunters danced at just any time, every day would be like every other day, and I should never have any vacation at all."

So the little prince tamed the fox. And when the hour of his departure drew near--

"Ah," said the fox, "I shall cry."

"It is your own fault," said the little prince. "I never wished you any sort of harm; but you wanted me to tame you . . ."

"Yes, that is so," said the fox.

"But now you are going to cry!" said the little prince.

"Yes, that is so," said the fox.

"Then taming has done you no good at all!"

"It has done me good," said the fox, "because of the color of the wheat fields."

And then he added:

"Go and look again at the roses. You will understand now that yours is unique in all the world. Then come back to say goodbye to me, and I will make you a present of a secret."

The little prince went away, to look again at the roses.

"You are not at all like my rose," he said. "As yet you are nothing. No one has tamed you, and you have tamed no one. You are like my fox when I first knew him. He was only a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But I have made him my friend, and now he is unique in all the world."

And the roses were very much embarassed.

"You are beautiful, but you are empty," he went on.
"One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you--the rose that belongs to me.

But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or ever sometimes when she said nothing.
Because she is my rose.

And he went back to meet the fox.

"Goodbye," he said.

"Goodbye," said the fox.

"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."

"What is essential is invisible to the eye," the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.

"It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important."

"It is the time I have wasted for my rose--" said the little prince, so that he would be sure to remember.

"Men have forgotten this truth," said the fox. "But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose . . ."

"I am responsible for my rose," the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.

The Wing (by: Denise Levertov)

Something hangs in back of me,
I cant see it, can't move it

I know it's black,
a hump on my back.

It's heavy. You
can't see it.

What's in it? Don't tell me
you don't know. It's

what you tell me about-
black

inimical power, cold
whirling out of it and

around me and
sweeping you flat.

But what if,
like a camel, it's

pure energy I store,
and carry humped and heavy?

Not black, not
that terror, stupidity

of cold rage; or black
only for being pent there?

What if released in air
it became a white

source of light, a fountain
of light? Could all that weight

be the power of flight?
Look inward: see me

with embryo wings, one
feathered in soot, the other

blazing ciliation of ember, pale
flare-pinions. Well-

could I go
on one wing,

the white one?

please......???

Me (ihihihihi :">)

Barusan mencermati shout box gw...
ada tulisan dari mpok B yang bilang : ... namanya niken atmi....
hihihihi.. gw baru nyadar ternyata selama ini gw gak pernah mencantumkan nama asli gw di blog, selalu sebagai daon_ijo ato si uun.Dua nama itu diambil dari YM nick gw a.k.a : dedaunan_hijau....

gw malu nyantumin nama asli gw... (gara2 : liat aja blog gw yang kayak gini...).

Tapi akhirnya gw sadar sejelek atau sekacau apa pun blog gw, apa yang gw ketik di situ adalah apa yang gw pernah rasakan dan gw pikirkan, dan kalo gw dah ngeklik publish, berarti gw setuju buat membagi sebagian dari hidup gw tersebut dengan siapa pun yang mungkin baca blog ini...

so... ya udahlah, here i really really am. Dengan seluruh keberanian, saya perkenalkan :
Pemilik Blog ini... (sfx: taraaaaa)
nama : niken atmi sutrisniningrum
TTL : malang, 30 maret 1980
gender : female
occption: kuli nyambi kuliah s2 di dept. chemical engineering, itb
hobby : ngecet, nulis2, baca buku dsb dsb..

sodara-sodara sekalian, jika anda menemukan suatu hal yang nyleneh (a.k.a : strange) di blog ini, mohon just keep it in your heart, jangan dilaporken ke pihak yang berwenang ya.....

(nb : buat mpok B, thanks atas perhatiannya)

Januari, januari yang biru

blogku pun ikut membiru
sebiru langit yang penuh awan

lalalalalalalalalala
hihihihi (kumat nich)

eh lama ga nulis-nulis, serasa aneh...
tapi selama ga nulis kemaren, jadi sering stress (+ meracau ga jelas)
oleh karena itu, maka :
dengan ini saya menyatakan bahwa menulis harus diberdayakan kembali!!

Pengen cerita nih...
2 bulan terakhir ini gw pindah chat ke irc, disitu gw ketemu banyak org yang ummm... seperti gimana ya ...
biasalah, dunia chat yang penuh dengan misteri dan keanehan
tapi ada satu ( selalu deh... case yang sama) yang menarik perhatian gw,
orang ini smart banget, dan pake super komputer kayaknya (cepet bgt, kalo di ping replynya 1 sec)
dia lucu, dan gw rasa dia bukan org biasa (dont get me wrong here, dia mnsia normal kok)
he is interesting anyway
dan gw suka denger suara dia di telepon, aksennya yang kental dengan nuansa melayu :)), his infectious laughter and suaranya yang kayak suaranya pak'e

tapi orang ini never let me get close to him
dia ga mau kasih tau age dia, dia bahkan ga mau kasih tau real name dia hikss
padahal... (walaupun kata mas sakspear what is a name) tetep aja, name of things adalah salah satu hal pertama yang diajarkan Allah sama nabi Adam.. :((

gw rasa he keep me at bay for a reason...
mungkin dia dah merried or something ( gw dah tanya ma dia , katanya sih masih single)
ato dia anak buahnya dr azahari... :D (kalo iya, pasti dah ketangkep dia... org kerjaannya main scrembel online)
ato.........
"dia" bukan dia yang gw kenal di chattingan
dan dia ga mau gw tau identitas "dia"
ummm yeah
seharusnya gw bisa menghormati keputusan "dia" yang seperti itu...
tapi dasar gw... i cant keep this curiousity inside,
semakin "dia" bersembunyi, semakin gw pengen tau...
jadilah... proses hek mengehek ini (lom berhasil nich..)
tapi dont worry i didnt do and won't do anything illegally
its just putting together the puzzle pieces he may drops in its right place...

and every little things that only time will tell

I'll find you, no matter who you are!!! ( kecuali kalo gw dah bosen duluan heheheheheh)

New year 2005

my first post dis year, dont quite know what i want to say but
happy nu year for me myself and i

jz jezz jeezzz jeeezzzz
naik kereta api tutututut
ke bandung-surabaya
..................

ummmmm nda tau ah

i feel loosing control of my life....
and its not good....
at all
but... i dont know what to do

today my body feel not delicious :))(javanese english nih)
hikss
hiksss
hikssss

sebenernya kemarin pas gw pulang banyak yang terjadi
salah satunya bener-bener broke my soul
hiksss
wanna tell you
but i couldnt
hikssss

udah ah
hiks hiks molo
bosen ah

Tahun Baru 1425 H

alhamdullilah
gw bisa melewati taun kemaren dng selamat
walaupun banyak borok2 yang ngelupas dan berdarah lagi
moga2 taun depan bisa jadi lebih baik

buat sodara-sodara dan teman2 sekalian
gw ucapken : mohon maap lair batin ya
biar lebih ringan buat melangkah ke depan
met tahun baru dan met idul fitri walaupun telat

(ga kerasan di tabulas.... syusaah buat blogwalkingnya) :((

Rumah Barunya si Daon

Sodara2 daon pindah ke tabulas
abis blogger ga bisa diakses dari tempet ngetem daon
kalo mo masup blogger kudu ke warnet dulu....
huhuhuhuuuu sedihhhhhh
padahal postingan di blogger dah banyak .....
tapi ya diusahalan setingan kompie di tpt daon dibenerin dulu
sapa tau bloggernya masih bisa diakses

Met Ramadhan, Met Lebaran dan Met Tahun Baru ya
maapin salah2 katanya si daon yaaaa....
see ya in oher time and place....
smoga selalu dalam lindunganNya
PISSSS !!!!!!